i am trying not to think of the past cuz it was then and this is now i cant go back and change it no way of ever knowing if things would have been different sick of shedding tears over what seems like nothing anymore i wanna just turn and walk away i am happy now so why then? why think of then anymore? why get that stuck in my head too? i hate that i think of this stuff to a point i wish i knew what could have happened if i had stayed and kept loving but would i still be as happy as i am now? i thought that i moved on but part of me hopes things go back knowing full well that things are what they are now i am stuck in this hell that i put myself in i wish that God would see me once again and i wish i could figure out a plan for the future the best days of my life are in the past and every tear wont get them back so much time has passed but seems like yesterday tempted to just walk away from everything to go back to what once made me happy but i am different now than before ready to be what i was meant for but not knowing what i was meant for... Never knowing what will be from now on Ignoring what i wanted in the past Caring for whats truly important to me Keeping my heart safe for now and forever | 
